So here I am, 4 am, cranky, awoken by the dog chasing the cat, actually taking a selfie in the mirror just so I can share with the world how irritated I am. Knowing that in a few hours I’ll probably need a nap because I can’t fall back asleep now, feeling frustrated trying to think of ways to be productive without waking up everyone else in the house (darn I can’t even make a pot of coffee – trials of living in a condo – and Starbucks isn’t open yet)…and I won’t lie – I am not motivated the slightest bit to take the dog on a wee early morning walk.
Turning thirty a few weeks ago has seemed to bring my New Year early. I knew there were changes on the horizon but what I didn’t know is how much my mindset would be morphing too… I have been trying to detach myself electronically more. I would like to say I had been busy working towards my goals and dreams when I was plugged in so much but the truth is I spent most of my time scanning Ebay for deals and hours and hours on Pinterest. I wasn’t using my “plugged in” time efficiently. I was spending more time thinking about what I want and where I want to be than time acting to get there. So my “electronic device” time is now limited to productive time – I only open up my laptop when I have a task to complete (However sometimes my tasks are still a little exaggerated – for instance I spent 1 1/2 hours on Shutterfly designing a calendar for next year – all the pages do not need to be completed in a day!) and I limit myself to no more than 15 minutes on Pinterest and Ebay daily.
At the beginning of this past week I had quite a leap in my professional life which in the last five days I’m finding is greatly affecting my personal and home life. I was transferred to a different office – closer to home. I am thankful for the growth and experiences I was able to have while in the Maryland office and I think it has and will continue to help me develop in my career. And though I truly miss my staff from Hagerstown, I feel this was a good change for myself. This past week I cooked dinner on a week night for the first time in about six months.
Sometimes it’s the small things things that we miss. I know that this change also brings some re-adjusting to habits I had lost but I’m up for the challenge.
With hitting thirty, a new sense of confidence has betaken me. I’m not sure if it’s a realization that my twenties are over and it’s time to take control of my life theory or if it’s me becoming more comfortable with who I am, but either way I like where it’s leading me. The past few months were tough in a lot of areas for me and now that I’m through it I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. I am starting to feel like I’m on a path to where I want to be. My new found self-confidence is helping me ask for what I need, do what needs to be done, and feel more positive about the outcomes.
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.” (James 1:2-4)
I know there are still many changes and challenges to come but this time I’m ready to take them head on and grow from the experiences.