Positive people are not people who never have negative thoughts, they are people who change these thoughts.
Some mornings I wake up and I’m just not happy…just not feeling satisfied with my life and feeling cranky. Rainy days seem to do this to me the most; I’m achy and drained on most rainy days (unfortunately that tends to be part of the condition with RA – but hey I’m not too bad at forecasting the weather now!) When I feel like crap it makes it hard sometimes for me to stay positive. I’m sure you’ll hear me say this a lot but self talk and self discovery are key to my existence. I’ve learned to be able to work through from the initial feeling when I wake up of how my life may suck to I’m really not mad about anything in my life or at anyone in my life, I just don’t feel good. I’ve learned that though I may not feel good today or may feel dissatisfied with where I am today and a little disgusted that I may not be able to accomplish all I planned to in a day, there is always a new day and new opportunity. Life is a bunch of tasks and what I don’t get done today I will add to tomorrow’s list.
We all tend to think of how different our lives could be if, just if, something or someone was different or had happened differently. We get stuck in that “what would it be like if I was” thought… well guess what, “The grass isn’t greener on the other side, it’s greener where you water it.”
I keep seeing that quote repeatedly and it’s been inspiring me and motivating me and encouraging me and is giving me strength to keep working on things, not to give up. I am lucky to be where I am in life, with who I am with in life, and to have the things I have. I’ve been through a lot and I’ve gotten myself this far, I will keep reaching for the stars. There is much more I want out of life yet, and I probably have a hundred projects in motion (my boyfriend has pretty much called me artistically ADHD – I think he may be right) and eventually I will accomplish them…just have to keep watering them!