I Do Not Want To Be Finished…I Want To Be The Mess.

“Embrace the glorious mess that you are.” ~ Elizabeth Gilbert


I am a canvas of life, an amazing piece of art still being created, a creation that has the ability to transform into anything I can dream of each and every day. Just as paint starts in a tube and then becomes a magnificent blob of wet paint on a palette, spilling and pouring among the surface which it lays on until a paintbrush picks it up and splatters it onto the canvas, so fluid, so free – that is what I want to be. I do not want to be a complete statue in a museum, to be looked at in awe, not yet. I want to be the wet clay still being molded. I want to be the photographs still developing in the dark room. I want to be the uncompleted drawing. I want to be the ever-moving stage during the play.

Right now, I just want to be the process of the artist because when I do pass, I want to be the great masterpiece of my long, vivid life.

24 thoughts on “I Do Not Want To Be Finished…I Want To Be The Mess.

  1. Great vibe and mentality to have as you are in your creative process. Enjoy every part of each part of each day – and appreciate where you are in the moment.

    1. I think we become conditioned to always make sure we keep it together. It’s a process, but I’m learning to let go and to just be and every step I take towards that has been absolutely invigorating!

    1. Thank you, that is really nice! I’ve thought about it…I have a bit of a struggle with stage fright but since 2017 I’ve decided is going to be my year to let go of fear maybe I should revisit the idea : ) Thanks for the thoughtful push!

  2. Totally agree. This is why I never stop learning, reading, growing. It’s funny at 45 I feel the same as I did at 25, yet at the same time so very different! Age is a peculiar thing. I used to think 45 was old. Now I feel like adult life is just beginning.

  3. This was such a beautiful writing! I loved both the idea behind it and how you put it into words. I think it is so important to not focus so much on the result but to also enjoy the journey, or the “moulding” as you put it. I’m very happy to have come across this piece, you stirred something within me!

  4. I always struggle to relax and enjoy the present. All I can see is the end of the process and it makes everything harder. My goal this year is truly to embrace where I am at my life right now.

    1. I love that. I struggled with that same point of view and it takes a lot of self-talk to change the way you think and see things but letting go and just being in each moment has been amazingly freeing!

    1. I have to agree with you. Learning to live in the present is something I have to practice and focus on everyday. I pull so much of my inspiration for my artwork and ideas from my experiences that sometimes I find that I can get stuck thinking of a memory or a struggle, and also in dreaming of the things I wish for the future or the what-if’s and what will becomes. Through my practice of learning to live in the present though, I have learned that I can enjoy these moments and experiences so much fully. It takes a lot of discipline for me but it has been paying off. I feel much more freedom not worrying of what has happened and of what is coming.

  5. Omg love this! I’m someone who is obsessed with organization and as much as people think that’s an awesome trait… it’s nice to be able to just enjoy the mess and creativeness

    1. I am very much the same. I am learning to find the balance between the two though, it’s a process but I’m getting there! I need the organization to be productive but I need the freedom to create also. I believe structure is good but we can’t make it too rigid or we get stuck.

  6. Wow. Loved reading something so different! In our life long strife to be perfect, we lose sight of the beauty in imperfections. This is such an awesome reminder to celebrate the imperfections while the work is in progress!! 🙂

  7. This is such a wonderful sentiment and great way to apporach life. We try to fly through so much of life to get to the next phase and miss the beauty of where we are! Thanks for the reminder that where i am has beauty and significance too!

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